Miss perfect gets a reality check!



Friends for life



I made friends with so many wonderful people on the Doulos and also in the towns which we would visit but the most special relationships was developed with a group of us that would get together everyday to just hang out and chill, up until this time I never knew what Roman Noddles was and my...oh my...did the crews company love it cause it was a quick fix for a snack...lol. The dinning hall was full of white people food (bland and boring)and how I so craved a good home cooked Curry, the Americans sat in the front and the  British sat in the back while the other countries sat with whomever they knew in the dinning hall and since South Africa had British influences at one time so we sat in the back. We did not get along with the Europeans cause they we very snobbish and acted like the rest of the world was beneath them and as for the Americans let me tell you...they talked so loud even though the person was sitting next to them (we could actually hear their conversation in the back, had no table manners (fork and knife in hand flying all over the place while they spoke) wanting more food than was given to them (on any given day  meals had to be made for 450 people and more cause there were visitors /families outside the ship and tour groups that would join us for lunch or dinner so at the buffet you would always see a one only or two each sign placed at different stations) I did not realize it then but the Americans were used to eating huge belly busting meals...lol and here they were served fairy size meals. I asummed that everyone was God fearing and striving for the mark of pleasing God however there was prejudice on board the Mission ship and a hole lot more fasten your seat belt cause this Bible believing , tongue talking, Pentecostal Indian girl was in for a rude awakening...think all is well when you have 350 born again children of God NOT!     I was raised believing that if you are a child of the living God you don't smoke, drink alcohol or go to clubs ect! and these foreigners did it all and they lived on the ship "What is wrong with this picture?" Are you saved? I was appalled by their behavior. I became so judgemental and self righteous and God was going to teach me a lesson that I would think twice about judging other's again!

So Leonard and I spent time together and I started to like the guy even though he was an American (God forbid RIGHT...lol) one night while sitting with some friends on the dock I saw him so drunk that he was  carried on board the ship by two of his friends who were also drunk themselves and I was so outraged "Hell No" I screamed he is not making a fool of me, talking to a drunk person is just as good as talking to a wall so I fumed threw the night waiting for the morning... I wanted to Mix...Slice and dice him up into pieces and when the chance arrived I totally let him have it and called it a quits! when he was confronted he did not think anything of it? What a Heathen...he needed to check his salvation, fumed I moved forward and tryed to avoid him which was almost impossible seeing that we worked together. If any Man was going to marry me he had to be perfect and now that Leonard's secret is out he was so down at the bottom of the scale,  would rather be a Nun that marry a less perfect man...after all I was Miss perfect...lol
It amazes me as to how one part of the world considers things as appalling and the other as no big deal, thank God that he is forgiving and does not think or act like man or else we would all be doomed to hell.
After a few days of stewing in my righteous anger (given to me by God..what a joke) I asked Leonard the why's and how's and he talked very straight forward and truthful and this Miss righteous Girl got checked by a sinner....oops did I think bad! Man looks on the outward and God looks at the heart so I asked God to reveal Leonard's heart to me and God never lets me down ;)